Hi, I'm Tammra and I have 20+ years experience working in the holistic health field as a Registered Nutritional Consulting Practitioner and NLP Master Practitioner (Neuro-Linguistic Programming / Psychology) as well as working and performing in the entertainment industry as a Professional DJ and Event Planner. I am also presently studying to be a Red Thread Guide.
My chosen career paths may seem far apart, but here’s what they have in common: they both help us create and celebrate new grooves, new moves, and new ways of thinking and experiencing the world around us, and can lead us to creating our own happiness.
For the past 25+ years I have been fascinated by the human condition...including my own timeline. Upon having a nervous breakdown between 2006 and 2009, debilitating anxiety had left me mostly afraid to leave the house. This woke me up. Big time. I decided to ask The Big Questions and the answers I found helped me breakthrough my anxiety, remap my life and manifest the life of my freakin' dreams... and I did, passive income, a true man (who is now my husband of 10 years), a house ... and then boom, it all collapsed again in 2015. To be truthful I am still coming through the tail-end of this massive transformation and with more clarity, WAAAY healthier boundaries, trauma-informed / trauma- experienced tools for PTSD and a deep empathy for people who suffer from chronic pain and illness - physically, mentally and emotionally.
I am very passionate about holistic nutrition and had been working in health food stores since the early 90's! In 2000-2006, at the same time as I was learning and working in the nutrition field I was also developing my skills as a professional dj and event planner. Now, you might be thinking that these are seemingly opposite professions to be in and I guess I did too. Believing I couldn't be or do both, I lived two lives, with two heads, which took its toll on my mental and physical well-being. By day I was a clean-living health nut, but spinning in the clubs and at festivals, I really battled with peer pressure around drinking and doing drugs and sometimes, I lost.
So often I would make resolutions ...
And then in the midst of things, it seemed like I was on autopilot. I’d just make risky decisions without much thought, and later I couldn’t even tell you why or what I was thinking. Sometimes it felt like I wasn’t thinking at all, just ping-ping-ping reacting like a pinball in a machine.
Sure, I had some super fun times, but it came at a cost. When most people would just sleep off a hangover, I would drop into self-hate because what I was doing was so far out of alignment plus I didn't know I had genetic predispositions and unconscious trauma affecting how I would recover. I would literally beat myself up. I eventually ended up with severe panic attacks and even thoughts of suicide. Which shocked me because I love people, life and have always been quite optimistic! It wasn't until a divorce in 2009 that broke me open, that I realized that this double-life and being out of integrity in my body, mind and soul was a slow death.
If you’re new to NLP, here’s the gist of it: You know how I said it felt like I was making automatic decisions without conscious thought? That’s actually how our brains function. Each and every day, most of the decisions we make take place on the subconscious level. Something happens, and the needle in our brain drops into the pre-existing groove and we react without thinking. Not just in crisis, but a million times a day.
We use our subconscious grooves for everything from buying yogurt (we instinctively choose the one we’re familiar with or the brand we trust; that’s a subconscious groove) to deciding who to pay attention to (our subconscious detects and decodes authority and status symbols which means we’re more likely to pay attention to a boss or a leader or a pretty face rather than someone with fewer status symbols and cues). Unconscious decision-making is evolutionary and saves us from decision-fatigue. It can also get us into trouble, because we habituate negative sequences and develop unconscious grooves for negative behaviour, which is how we end up doing the same things over and over again without even thinking about it.
Here’s the cool thing about NLP, though: we can raise the negative sequences to the level of consciousness and interrupt them. We can interrupt our negative grooves. We can also program positive and desirable grooves into our subconscious minds. You know how you can automate your email or pre-record programs you want to watch? You can use NLP to automate good habits and pre-record your own success.
It wasn’t just a life-saver. It was a life-changer.
During this time, and in a good part because of my commitment to my studies and new practices, I realized that alcohol and drug abuse were my personal triggers to destructive behaviour. They dropped the needle into my unconscious, negative grooves and activated the unconscious, destructive sequences. So I consciously took that on. I decided to carve new grooves in my life. After more work on myself, working with Shamans and aligning myself with people who want more out of life, I am thrilled - ecstatic! - to tell you I have been sober since September, 2011.
What to do about dj-ing and dancing then? Now I was sober, committed to my studies and practices, and successfully mastering my mindset. Could I still spin records and dance? I wanted to. I had to. Creating Soul-waking, booty shaking music mixes and joyous vibes for groups of people and dancing are a part of me. They move me. They feed my Soul. For a long time I split myself into two people; now it was time to integrate and be whole.
Knowing that music was a healer, I found a conscious dance class called 5Rhythms and EPIPHANY! Everything clicked. I suddenly saw how it all fit together. Holistic nutrition, NLP, soul work, art, dj'ing and conscious dance: they’re each healing tools that help us create new maps in our minds and souls. They help us shake out of the old, negative, destructive grooves and create new ones: physically, psychologically, soulfully, and spiritually. Each of these things is powerful on its own, but together? Together they’re big magic and powerful healing medicine for your life. All of these things, together, help us get unstuck and create new grooves and new ways forward. They can up your life frequency.
One more ... juicy thing. In the summer of 2018 when things became extra scary (80lbs, diagnosed with Lyme disease, mold toxicity and numerous co-infections + PTSD) a dear friend invited me to a Red Thread Circle. I never knew the true healing power of community until I sat there, sharing our stories and wisdom and coming home to creativity again has been priceless. I attended every Red Circle gathering after that and decided to say yes to an invitation to becoming a Red Thread Guide. To read more about what the Red Thread Guide program visit http://shilohsophiastudioes.com/redthreadprogram