Slaying dragons

I have often heard that people quit right before their biggest breakthrough. In the past 2 weeks I have almost thrown in the towel a few times (regarding my a huge event I am curating)... when this thought occurs I remember the times when I landed in the hospital with every muscle seizing due to sheer panic and fear... I then remember the journey I went on after that, the self doubt, the confusion, the wondering where my strong rebel-self had gone. This journey took me so deep into darkness that I almost didn't find my way out. It led me to surrendering completely and I learned about unconscious belief loops, deep rooted patterns  (some call it ancestral wounds) ... the more I asked questions about these things the more I realized that I was part of a cycle and it was time to end the cycle. It was time to trust. In fact the entire experience and breakdown gave my life purpose. I feel honoured to be breaking the cycle on so many things my family have suffered for, who knows, maybe 1000's of years. 

Last night I couldn't sleep and it led me to finding a core belief in the grief and loss department, that, through muscle testing apparently, I didn't believe anymore. The phrase went like this: "Even though I have grieved what I lost, I know that a greater good will follow." I was sad that my body was telling me that I didn't believe this. I muscle tested quite a few times as I was a little shocked. So then, I applied something called Psych-k (NLP psychology kinesiology) on myself (using the new direction balance) and within minutes I felt a softness flowing through my body again. I could breathe more freely. I could see how fear was creeping in and blocking my ability to believe that greater things can come through endings. I have been here before and I trust the process wholeheartedly. I can do this. I am pretty sure I slayed a dragon last night...